today i had a patient who almost went into a hypertensive attack .. yeah it wasn't my fault but....
5 minutes was the hardest minutes i went through for sometime now
it took me back to that ugly day .. i had this bad case... :( i though i forgot about it .. i though i got over it ... but at this moment i was about to lose control as before.. i panicked as before... i got my limbs cold as before .. thank god this time i dealed ok.. :( but still i can't get full control in bad cases

will i ever got used on it ever ??